Went to the social security office Monday so that’s done and gonna hit up the DMV tomorrow then just need print the papers off for my birth certificate an then i need to go to the bank change my name there an ill pretty much be done with all this thank goodness this crap is time consuming, would have been so much easier just been named the right way in the first place.
One down
Just found out that my name and gender change have been granted and i do not have to appear before the judge tomorrow! I think at first i was more happy about not having to go to court then it being approved just because i have been stressing to the max an having anxiety attacks about speaking to a judge. But for the record i am beyond excited about the name an gender change now to start changing all my legal documents so i can get a passport an travel
My family sucks a little at least right now they do. I hate that they don’t even thing to include me. Even if they don’t think I would be able to attend something at least just ask. I mean in this instance I would have been able to pull it off and make it but no they didn’t think to ask months ago but instead they made a comment about it and I was like um hello I would love to go. Then it’s to late to get the same tickets they got which was really amazing tickets. So yeah my feelings got hurt and I’m upset and not talking to them for a few days so they can wonder why I’m mad. I wont ever get a sorry, I know that but still. I just don’t like being left out.
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That moment when you realize that you are the black sheep and you always will be.
It’s not that it’s the worst thing that you could be but it does suck at times. Not being understood. Always having people question who you are.
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9-20-2012
Why is it that whenever you feel like you can finally let loose and just have fun and not really have to worry about anything cause shit is going great finally that shit breaks and you have unexpected expenses. All I want to do is work and save and have fun time with my baby but my car decided it wanted some of the love also i guess. Oh well life goes on I guess. I’m just hoping this promotion comes thru for me and that i can get Sarah on as well so that we will have a good chunk of extra change coming in every month and we will be able to set aside a good chunk of it and keep some to have those little things that we all want.
9-18-12
The trip to say was exciting, not all in a good way either. My mother and sister are exactly alike and sometimes that can just lead to trouble because they always have to have the last word. So this weekend was filled with excitement, happiness, stress, laughter, blowups, quality family time, wishing there wasn’t so much family time. Some things that needed to be said where said, did it sink in to their heads I don’t know but lets hope they did so I don’t have to repeat myself next time I spend more then a day with them. The wedding was beautiful, lets hope it goes better than the last one. Enjoyed seeing my nieces, they are growing up way to fast. Hopefully my sister can make it out here so we can take them to disneyland soon. All in all it was a good weekend and I got to see all my family, even the ones that I don’t care for. I even got to see my childhood best friend which is always fun and she gave me a copy for cs5 which is exciting all in itself. Now it’s back to the real world which involves work so I’m not to excited.
9-10-12
We fly out in a few hours. Im excited and nervous. I think everything is going to be alright and it makes it easier knowing that my baby will be there by my side. We got some awesome news and I’m just excited to have a great weekend.
9-6-12
So only ten more days till we leave for Texas for the weekend. Now I’m excited and not so excited for this trip. I’m excited cause I miss my family and cant wait to see them especially my nieces. But the down fall to this trip is even though my family is supportive of me now they still don’t use right pronouns or name half the time and it gets really frustrating. So even though I miss them all like crazy being around them for long periods of time is mentally draining.
On another note we are taking this trip cause my sister is getting married. It wasn’t till a few days ago that it hit me that there are going to be a number of people from high school there that I haven’t seen since high school. I’m not even sure they know about me or anything. So I’m nervous about seeing people from my pass.
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8-28-12
Life is like standing on a fraying tight rope with a alligator jaws open underneath waiting.
Enjoy the sun while it still shines, smile vehemently, indignantly, entirely celebrating a shining perfect moment even as alligators swim underneath.
The alligators are always there, they remind us to…
Smile and enjoy those perfect moments whenever they arise, because life without fear is not a life fully appreciated. Smile not cause you are unaware of the alligators but cause you are aware of them and because you know how wonderful it feels when they release their jaws from your ankles.
Appreciate those moments between the maulings.
Despite all the danger and pain around us make a conscious and complete decision to be furiously happy in spite of it all.
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Life is Like
Imperfection is beauty, maddness is genius, and it’s better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring.
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